Blessed be the Lord, who daily bears us up; God is our salvation. Selah (Psalm 68:19 ESV)
As each morning comes, it seems that the heavy load of the death of Mercy gets lighter and lighter. We have had our ups and downs over the past 2–1/2 weeks; but in general it is getting easier.
When I first looked at the above verse this morning I was taken back. The word bears means most of the time to load up; like you would load up a wagon or a cart. I’m like, “blessed be the Lord, who daily loads up our cart with extra weight?” But the word in this context means to bear the load, and not to place the load.
It encourages me that God, the God of our salvation, is daily bearing us up under our load. We indeed feel the weight is being supported by hands other than our own. When we were heading to the hospital to deliver Mercy, Karie told me she felt like Jesus in the garden pleading with the Father to remove this load from her. Then during and following the delivery, the load was extremely heavy. I suppose if a person does not feel the full weight of a load at some point, they are not able to appreciate when the load lightens. Have you ever tried cranking up the tension on an elliptical to 400 resistance for two minutes? Let me tell you, when you decrease the tension to 200 after those two minutes, it feels like you could run forever.
We have felt the resistance of a heavy load. I am sure there are folks that have had the machine cranked to 1000 and may think 400 would seem light. Jesus took every bit of resistance that was possible when he was crucified. That makes him able to sympathize with those who are bearing loads of their own. Jesus is our salvation. He daily bears us up under our load. Blessed be the Lord!