Hebrews 12:2 “looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.”
We have returned home safe and sound from delivering our 16 week old still born baby boy. His name is Justus Samuel David. He was 5-1/4” long and 1.2 ounces. He was absolutely beautiful. I have decided (for now) to refrain from posting a picture. He died in his mother’s womb in the 14th week and so he may be hard to look at to some. We were able to see all of his fingers and toes. We could see his shoulder muscles and fingernails. We could see his jaw bone and ears. He even had his mouth and one open eye. The entire process was the hardest thing either my wife or I have ever been through. The emotional pain in nearly unbearable, except for one person who helped us all along the way.
Jesus is nearer to us now then he has ever been. We were overwhelmed with all of the love we were shown from family, friends and strangers. The delivery process became very painful for my wife. It is amazing to have seen how God gave her strength and perseverance to continue on. The strength came through our prayers and your prayers. The strength came though a devotional on suffering, the singing of Shane and Shane, and from numerous portions of God’s Word.
One particular portion that was quoted more than any other verse in the Bible was Hebrews 12:2. This became to us such a source of strength that it fed the fires of every other means of grace. Particularly we came to understand that the word “despised” means “to think little of.” Jesus hung naked and wounded on the hill of Golgatha. He was the pinnacle of “shame,” yet we learn that he thought little about it; “he despised it!”
Knowing that truth meant everything to us. Knowing that Jesus thought little of the shame he faced gave us the resolve to think little of our every hinderance to our comfort. If you have ever given birth to a still-born child; I can tell you now with experience that nothing about it is comfortable. Jesus did not intend for us to be comfortable and so we resolved to think little of each shameful and humiliating moment. Words can not express to you the power God gave us though this truth from his Word.
Jesus is the one who helped us through this painful and agonizing experience. He is the one we “looked to.” He is the founder and perfecter of our faith. And if he could endure the cross where he was put to death for all of mine and my wife’s shame; surely we could endure our momentary affliction. Jesus has spared our little baby boy from seeing and experiencing the sin of this world. It is the most loving thing he could have done for Justus.
Thank you so much for every entrance into the throne of grace you made on our behalf. We were loved so much through you!
Scott and Karie David